What your heart knows

Everybody would probably know the verse David likes to say in at least three Psalms "The Lord fulfills the desires of the hearts of those who do His will and adore Him." This is of course and "If" statement, with the prerequisite that we must adore the Lord. 

But what if I told you that we often lie to ourselves about what our heart desires? I know I've heard in pop movies "the heart wants what the heart wants! Why shouldn't I love him/her?!" To put it bluntly, I don't believe that these people are telling the truth. What the heart wants is to be fulfilled by the adoration of the Lord. 

The only unfulfilled desires we would have in our hearts is this: the desires that we think our heart wants. What's more, because our God is outside of time it's not "He will fulfill our desires" it is "He has fulfilled our desires." It is something we can thank Him for. The only disappointments in life are really what we've allowed ourselves to be disappointed over. The bottom line, and the beginning principle is this: we long to adore our Lord. Whether we know Him or not we have and ALWAYS will desire to adore our Lord. 

I'm a musician, and it's very easy for me to notice discordance, bad musicianship, and in general it's easy for me to be discontent with the music that we play. But it's not good music I want... It's the Lord. I want Him to be adored, to be worshipped. During worship it is not my job to go out and to express a sound, it is my job to go in to the secret place, and to find my heart connected to the Lord. Realizing this recently has lifted a lot of burden that I've had in my heart due to the fact that my desire is to have layers, expressions, and creative outlets fit to "be worthy of the Lord." What I didn't realize is that the Lord may enjoy the worship, but is as clear as glass when He says through David the WORSHIPER "I desire a contrite heart and a broken spirit as a sacrifice." Not the offerings of incense in worship, or money for sin offerings. He desires to see us turn to Him. 

He desires to see repentance. One thing that I've been working on living in is a lifestyle of repentance in all areas of my life. While I've dealt with sexual strongholds as a big thing, I really feel like there are deep things happening in the area of my emotions following along with the style of repentance to the Lord. I don't mean "repentance to the Lord" as in I'm confessing and praying repentance, I mean it that I'm turning toward the Lord with my emotions. This is the secret place. The place of repentance.